Friday, September 30, 2016

Shocking, depressing, frightening ...

... that Trump has so many supporters who stick with him through every desperate lie and delusion. This is what the country has come to. Far worse than even James Baldwin imagined.

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MM giving us next week to ourselves. Hope to do much and get help from H. Start today.

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Great decision

Giving my 12 string guitar and 5 string banjo to my godsons NOW is one of the best decisions I've made. They grew up hearing me play them. I probably influenced them to become musicians.

Ma says getting the guitar brought tears to K's eyes, big lug of a guy he is.

I did something right!

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Great letter

"Thank you so much for  the twelve string!!!!!  I love it.  I always remember you playing it even before your Guthrie shows.  I forgot that DECCA is made by Harmony and I've always loved Harmony guitars.  I have a harmonica and the holder so I will keep on practicing and working on a little more folksy blues."

Kass, my best friend's #2 son, grew up on my music and is a rock guitarist in Hendrix tradition. Be different for him.

Shipping FedEx to Lewiston, got there in less than 24 hrs!

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Half speed this morning. H in studio with MM. Vegetating.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Olive bread for my cousin

Sent her home with a loaf. Now on her cutting board ...

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Part One

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Sitting here in cluttered chaos - and feel great! Because the morning was so productive.

Baking bread, later chicken.

Wish my positive energy would rub off on Harriet. Not so far.

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Shipped guitar and banjo to Idaho ... major grocery shopping ... paid bills ... marinading chicken ... started laundry ... all before noon. I can loaf the rest of the day.

Monday, September 26, 2016


From NY magazine:

"The contrast between an obviously and eminently qualified public servant and a ranting bully was as stark as any presidential debate in American history."

Which doesn't matter to Trump supporters.
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R.I.P. SF of old

The boho-drain: bohemians say goodbye San Francisco, hello LA

"I used to be a human being"


Not being a masochist, I may skip the debate. Will likely show our system at its worst. Tape it in case I want to suffer later.

Sunday, September 25, 2016


Can feel other worldly, like being in suspended animation.

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Critical week

MM tackles H art studio and dressing room, challenging areas to downsize. Very stressful for her. How it goes will define next few weeks.

Meanwhile I am covering other downsize bases. Sick and all.

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Sunday afternoon

Sketch losing favorite nap place in downsize!

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Sick day

Too damn many lately.

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Busy weekend

Cousin from LA visiting, spend tomorrow with her. Work hard today. MM back at 9 a.m. Monday, major downsizing ahead.

But presently upstairs looks worse than ever!

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Friday, September 23, 2016

End of era

Next week I am shipping my 12 string guitar and 5 string banjo to my two godsons in Idaho, both musicians. Keeping the ukulele, now my only instrument. Formalizes a major change.

I bought the guitar as a grad student from Prof. Barre Toelken. A real bargain, as I recall, since my wife was his first PhD student in folklore.

Bought banjo a few years back to learn clawhammer. Took c!asses. Now I play clawhammer ukulele.

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Mariners need help ...


Most mornings I wake up blessed and content on the postage stamp of my universe. It's before sunrise. By nightfall I'm tired and often filled with the planet's grief. I can't crash early enough.

Occasionally I rise full of grief. Long days. This feels like one.

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Oh well

No energy today. Maybe later?

H found the car. Need to test an app.

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Thursday, September 22, 2016

A rare theater experience

One of the best theatrical experiences for me and all involved was COCKTAIL SUITE, a hyperdrama I wrote, directed and produced. Changed along way but in  final version, 3 one-act plays performed in a bar/restaurant, running simultaneously, major actors in one becoming minor in another. 3 performances for an evening of theater. A drama, a comedy, a ... musical!

8 roles. I formed a co-op with 10 claims, 1 for each actor, 2 for me as writer/director. We split the box office.

NO EXPENSES. I got space free because owner got food, drink revenue. No tech requirements, no costume expenses. Contemporary stories.

Audience of 50/night, usually sold out. $20 ticket, $1000 a night, $100 actor, $200 me per show, 2 shows a week. We thought we were getting rich! and every actor in town wanted to be in this.

Artistic success, financial success.

Transfer this concept to permanent space, use tech and screens to establish settings, could create a hyperdrama theater company.

Younger, I'd do it.

Tech to rescue?

Will try out some car finder apps. She always has her tablet in her purse.

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Old age

Distress call from Harriet. Appt at OHSU but can't find where she parked car. Found someone to help her. Ah, me.

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O mellow

No downsizing today, but other chores done in relaxed rhythm, making for pleasant day. Icing on cake, some good email chat.

Back to reality tomorrow.

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Bob Hicks on Samuel Johnson

Gray, chilly day

Soul food

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Upstairs in my chair, I look around. No evidence of downsizing. Nothing but clutter.

But downstairs, 2/3 of the basement, a disaster zone for 18 years, is EMPTY. This is progress!

With much work left to do.

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One true thing

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Wednesday, September 21, 2016


Major progress today, and H was really helpful and on the same page as the rest of us.

Big week next ... art studio and dressing room, H's two disaster areas.

Long odds but still possible to get house on market in October.

And I think we can get out this year. The company's efficiency gets things done quickly. Very impressed with Managed Moves.


Phone call last night from my old friend LF in LA. Her laughter is the best battery charge in the western world. I miss having her around.

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Love jazz vibraphone! In late 60s, becoming a writer in Portland after dropping out of grad school, before returning for MFA, lived across street from former George Shearing vibe player. Such sweet sounds! Such self-destruction! Same contrary energies in Chet Baker.

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I thought they'd do the art studio today but it's the attic. H supervising, all her stuff up there. I'm in bedroom, staying out of way. West coast jazz. Just like CJ.

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My best shot

Finished the novel. I'd tighten the ending a tad but otherwise this is as good as I am capable of in the serious fiction genre. Very proud of it.

Mariners crash

A few days ago the Ms had a legitimate shot at the playoffs. Exciting!
But they had to take a home series against the Blue Jays.

That hope ended last night with a10-2 pounding. Bummer!

And an old story.

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Headline of the day

ZIMBABWE Comedy thrives as country falls apart


Are we next?

Elevator music

375 top scientists warn of 'real, serious, immediate' climate threat

Surreal, appalling ignorance of many politicians. My recent play FAMILY CLIMATE is so right on! If I say so myself ...

Tuesday, September 20, 2016


Owner in front house VERY interested. He's a potter, loves basement and art studio. Intriguing possibility.

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A surprisingly good day

... all things considered. H stressed out, in bed. But I'm not for a change ... I stayed away from the action because my message is simple: get rid of it.

Do it all over again tomorrow, harder, downsizing art studio.

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Trying hard to be mellow

Downsizing company here, in basement. I'm staying out of their way. H down there. Hope they can deal with her.

Listening to jazz.

Monday, September 19, 2016

Ruby Gold

I discovered Ruby Gold potatoes a year or two ago, and instantly they were my favorite breakfast spud. Some months back, they disappeared. The grocer had no idea why.

Shopping this morning, I discovered their return. I bought two bags.

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New strategy

Really wanted to move in Oct. Ain't gonna happen. In the interests of sanity, readjust goals and expectations.

Downsize this year. No more.

Make house presentable through winter.

Sell house next spring.

If anything happens sooner, be delighted.

Reapportion finite energy. Less on move, more on spiritual renewal. Revisit favorite work. USA trilogy, the audio books. Mahagonny opera. Shostakovich.

Starting today.
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John Dos Passos, author of USA

Good start ...

... to the day. Maintain.

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Sunday, September 18, 2016

Quotable Albee

Edward Albee in quotes: 'the only things you can write about are life and death'

Good article

Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf? is a misunderstood masterpiece

Going down slow?

My body has taken a beating during this long, stressful period of transition. I feel it. Sometimes I wonder if I'll last long enough to make it. Believing the gods have a dark sense of humor isn't encouraging.

What to do?

Sarah Paulson's brilliant performance wins Emmy

My most satisfying work

Started rereading my novel SODOM, GOMORRAH & JONES. More proud of this than anything I've written. Nothing more reflects myself (values, attitudes) and the layered structure is perfect. Overwhelmed, really. In the zone, writing it. And a couple of Amazon reviewers "got it." Very satisfying - and definitely not mainstream.
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Day to day

I'm a DOER and it's frustrating that 95% of my time now is waiting around for someone else. In 5 hrs, with Harriet out of town, MM and I accomplished so much! Now it's back to a snail's pace.

Maybe I should start a project to distract me.

Listen again to the brilliant reading of USA. Takes a lot of time.

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A bit of work early a.m., visible progress. Rain. Back to bed.

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Saturday, September 17, 2016

Excellent overview

Edward Albee: the highs, lows and yet more highs of a remarkable career

An exploded audience

For writers, for me, the Internet, especially the early World Wide Web, changed everything. Conveniently, this coincided with my introduction to and obsession of hyperdrama.

In the 90s I put up the first website for playwrights and screenwriters, gaining instant credibility and benefits. This website led to my being contacted by Portland State University to create a screenwriting program. I did - and stayed almost 20 years.

In 1994 I wrote an essay "What Is Hypertext?" and put it online. It was found and admired by a librarian at the University of North Carolina. She offered me unlimited archival space in the new digital library, Ibiblio, she had created. A gift from the gods. I accepted.

My work in hyperdrama was found by a director in Santiago. He commissioned a one act hyperdrama, which was developed online with his company. This work now is "in the canon of first generation hypertext."

And so it goes. Here, online, has been my primary work environment and fan base through most of my career since the 90s. A virtual community.

What tranquility looks like

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I hope, after spending time at Russellville Park, I feel a visceral sense of community that I haven't had since the 1980s. I miss it.

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Baking after midnight

Crashed early, a few hours sleep, up to bake bread, maybe more.

Quiet, peaceful. Rare serenity.

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Friday, September 16, 2016


Edward Albee, Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf? playwright, dies aged 88

R.I.P. Edward Albee

A giant!

Q: Mr. Albee, what is your best play?

A: The one I'm working on. Why else would I write?

(Portland State Univ., early 2000s)


Got Byron's verse play. First read at UCLA in 1965. Now important viewpoint in new book. Whole cloth!

Moving, barely

A stressful night, hurting. When it warms up, sheds outside to deal with. The nightmare continues.

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New book in progress

With title of this blog. Memoir?

Structure in mind.

1. Socrates and the examined life. Is the examined life really more worth living?

2. Sisyphus and the eternal struggle. Is Camus right, the struggle alone is worth the effort?

3. Lord Byron's "Manfred." Manfred tells a priest, "It is not diffiicult to die." True?


A very high stress time of life. Trying to get to Russellville Park retirement community, working with H memory loss, control freak, slow magnified. Will we ever get out of here?

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Thursday, September 15, 2016


Fiddling with design. New blog ritual.

A new blog

For reflections, venting, brooding. Using title of proposed memoir, written at Russellville Park after we get there.